Two years after undergoing rehab to address his issues with addiction, Kit Harington says he’s never been happier he got sober.
Harington revealed in an interview with The Sunday Times that when Game of Thrones came to an end in 2019 he “went through some pretty horrible stuff.” He explained, “Things that have happened to me since Thrones ended, and that were happening during Thrones, were of a pretty traumatic nature and they did include alcohol.” Eventually, he continued, “You get to a place where you feel like you are a bad person, you feel like you are a shameful person. And you feel that there’s no way out, that’s just who you are. And getting sober is the process of going, ‘No, I can change.’” He also noted that, up until that point, he had kept his addictions, “very, very quiet and I was incredibly secretive and incredibly locked up with them. So they came as quite a surprise to the people around me. Which is quite often the case, I guess.”
In order to kickstart his sober journey, Harington checked into the Privé Swiss retreat in Connecticut where he says he was treated for “mainly alcohol.” He added that, while there, he also experienced suicidal thoughts. “Yes of course. I went through periods of real depression where I wanted to do all sorts of things,” he explained, adding that he hopes being open about those feelings will “maybe help someone, somewhere. But I definitely don’t want to be seen as a martyr or special. I’ve been through something, it’s my stuff. If it helps someone, that’s good.” He added that there is one story in particular that helps keep him going during tough times. “One of my favorite things I learnt recently is that the expression ‘a leopard doesn’t change its spots’ is completely false: that a leopard actually does change its spots,” he said. “I just think that’s the most beautiful thing. It really helped. That was something I kind of clung to; the idea that I could make this huge fundamental change in who I was and how I went about my life.”
The actor confessed that his addiction also took a toll on his marriage to his Game of Thrones co-star, Rose Leslie. But since getting sober and welcoming their baby boy in February, Harington says their home life has been nothing short of “wonderful.” He adds, “I have a child and my relationship is brilliant…I’m a very, very happy, content, sober man.” But, he confesses, the first three months of fatherhood were no walk in the park. In fact, he described the experience as “slightly torture” and “a kind of hell” before he and the newborn found their rhythm. “There’s something about having a child that is the most physically draining thing,” he said. “My hat goes off to any single parent. Any single parent, you’re a fucking genius. I don’t know how you do it. Because it’s more exhausting than everything I did on Thrones.”
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